I am the letter m....

It's a physical thang
It has not been the week for physical activity of any kind. I am bruised and battered and just down right accident prone or something. Okay let's start from Sunday, I accidentally stabbed myself while washing the dishes...with a FORK!!! Can you believe it? Forks aren't your sharpest kitchen utensils so imagine the force that it must have taken to actually break my skin w/ one. And it was underneath my nail, so it hurts more than a mother...well you know. My knee has been hurting more and more lately, and not just when I'm playing basketball...just all the time...it's probably because of the weather, but pain is pain. Yesterday, at our weekly basketball game, I tweaked my ankle and took a couple bad spills...well I always take a couple bad spills because I think I throw my body around like there's no tomorrow...but anyway I re-bruised an already messed up left hip and now it totally hurts like hell. I am limping around work like a freak...geez...and to think it's only wednesday. Thank goodness my only plans are to study...there's no possibility for injury there...except for my brain.

Sunny days gone by
Dang I was driving to work recently and realized that I don't think I had actually seen sunshine for a good week now. But when I went out to lunch...whattaya know...it came out! Power of suggestion, I'm telling you... It's funny how sometimes you can almost will something to happen...

We love rain
What is it about human nature that makes us want to make a bad situation worse? Why is it when things are already not going so well we seem to secretly want and inherently do , or not do things to make matters worse. I am getting so sick it's ridiculous. Granted I don't get sick very often(injured yes, but sick no) so I naturally am not accustomed to being sick. But lately, once I started showing symptoms that I have probably gestated some sort of virus, I have not done a thing to help my situation. I continually smoke, stay up ridiculously late and just am doing things that could probably make me sicker... I know I said I wasn't gonna talk about being sick anymore yesterday, but I am merely stating the obvious, and voicing it...to myself...out loud. But It just trips me out that people do this, it's like we have a thirst for suffering. I mean, why WOULDN'T I want to do what it took so that I wasn't sick anymore, why WOULD I do things that make me vulnerable to making me get worse? Of course I WANT to do the things it'll take to remedy my situation, but it DOESN'T happen.... We like the rain man, we really do...we want it to pour. I'm telling you...humanity is off it's rocker...and I say humanity cuz I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Stuck in the zone
Me and my buddy were chattin last night trying to figure out how to change the way someone sees you after they've only seen one side of you for so long. Basically, it's like being trapped in the zone...so how do you get out? Some people think you can, others beg to differ. Suggestions of, "stepping it up a notch" and "Kicking it into higher gear" have been suggested, and others of "You'll never get out" and "Just give up" have been as well. That sucks...because what if you got stuck in the zone out of circumstance and not by choice? What if you were forced into the zone and kept there for years? That sucks...so you've been branded a certain way when you shouldn't have been.

Thumbs up to...
-e-mail wars3
-Honey Glazed Walnut Shrimp
-Power of suggestion

Thumbs down to
-Injuries
-People in my throne room
-procrastination

"Patience is the companion of wisdom"
-St. Augustine